" If only you could know the things i long to say. If only i could tell you what i wish i could convey."
We are so happy along that six months. Me, indeed. I'm so blessed to have a brother like him, indirectly. We have some conversations till night, we share our experiences, we tell the things happened on us, till someday he told me that he loved someone.
That day i was feeling so blue. He was officially taken by someone, on that day. I couldn't handle myself. Do i have to be happy beacuse now he's not alone or even sad because i love him too?
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Time goes fast. Day by day was just filled by the story that he loved his girlfriend, and anything about the-one-he-loved. I got boring one time, but then i realized, i just his lil-sister. That fact wass tryin to kill me. Yet somehow i felt like maybe it's better to off without him. To be apart from him.
To end this. I can't stand it anylonger when finally his girlfriend unfollowed me from him then deleted me from his bbm contacts. I was so desperated. I was hurt. She profoundly hurt me.
She didn't know how much i love him. She didn't know how many struggles that i've been through just to reach him. Just to keep in touch with him, just to talk with him, ...................... just to see him.
The next year.
I'm living my new life, trying to forget him and anything about him. But i never forget him, definitely. Not because i don't want to, but i can't. I found him again on twitter, "nice to see you again,dear" i whispered to myself. Nice to know that he's happy now, with his new life, and what? he's single. No, no more her. But it's just impossible to wonder if i could be closer with him as yesterday.
I feel like i just want to say "Hi" to him but i can't. whereas, in past i was the only one who had his favorite "hello" but now, sadly he doesn't even know me. He doesn't even remember who-i-am.
But it's fine, at least i still remember him. The one whom i-never-forget.
Time flies. and it's hard to realize that he is just somebody that i used to know.
Now i'm in my first year of college. Starting my new day and life but still with the old hopes. Meet him.
to be continued...