What Can I Do

This is a song from a romantic-balladeer Christian Bautista which indeed describes the story. This is exactly for hi. :) 

What Can I do by Christian Bautista

I'm sorry if every song I sing is for you
Sorry if my whole world revolves around you
When I look at you
I find all my answers

I'm sorry if I hang on every word you say
Sorry if I think about you everyday
When I hear your voice
There's no need for tears

What can I do
To make you heart hear
To silence all your fears
Don't close your soul on me don't sell our memory
Oh you alone can save me
Oh you alone set me free
There's nothing else I wanna do
I'm so in love with you

How make you heart hear
I'll silence all your fear
Don't close you soul on me
Drown me in your love again and again
I am so in love with you

I'm sorry if I'm still holding both your hands
Sorry if I can't forget all that we've planned
I know you said no
But I won't let go

What can I do
To make your heart hear
To silence all your fear
Don't close your soul on me don't sell our memory
Oh you alone can save me
Oh you alone set me free
There's nothing else I wanna do
I'm so in love with you

How make your heart here
I'll silence all your fear
Don't close your soul on me
Drown me in your love again and again
I am so in love with you

Don't close your soul on me don't sell our memory
Oh you alone can save me
Oh you alone set me free
There's nothing else I wanna do
I'm so in love with you

I'll make your heart here
I'll silence all your fear
Don't close your soul on me
Drown me in your love again and again
I am so in love with you

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Go listen to it and profoundly drown on the melody. It does describe the words she long to says, the word she hopes she could convey. :)

Dear hi

Dear hi,

How are you now?
Glad to hear you're fine
You still look the same, cute as always

Dear hi,

Do you want to hear a little sound in my heart?
A little thought that always here?
A door which is waiting a key to be opened?

Dear hi,
These are some little thoughts from a pretty little dreamer.

Dear hi,

Have you ever wondered what's on my mind?
Have you ever imagined having a lover?
Do you ever feel being invicible?

Do you ever miss someone?
Not just missing him, yet even profoundly miss him indeed

Do you ever really care about someone? 
Not only do care about him, but also actually care, even the one's never care about you?

Do you ever remember someone?
Even the one's never even remember who you are? :)

Dear hi, this is just a little sound from a heart, a clear heart from a light-hearted girl.
Dear hi, if only you knew who is she, you will be surprised about her.
Dear hi, thank you :)

someday ( part 3 )

................ we become friends for along six months since that day. I'm so happy to be his friends. Indiretly, his little sister. Since he has no sisters and he wants me to be. I'm profoundly happy. But it doesn't get better. How could i pretend that i'm his lil sister if i have some feelings to him?

" If only you could know the things i long to say. If only i could tell you what i wish i could convey."

         We are so happy along that six months. Me, indeed. I'm so blessed to have a brother like him, indirectly. We have some conversations till night, we share our experiences, we tell the things happened on us, till someday he told me that he loved someone.

         That day i was feeling so blue. He was officially taken by someone, on that day. I couldn't handle myself. Do i have to be happy beacuse now he's not alone or even sad because i love him too?

....................................................................................................................

         Time goes fast. Day by day was just filled by the story that he loved his girlfriend, and anything about the-one-he-loved. I got boring one time, but then i realized, i just his lil-sister. That fact wass tryin to kill me. Yet somehow i felt like maybe it's better to off without him. To be apart from him. 

To end this. I can't stand it anylonger when finally his girlfriend unfollowed me from him then deleted me from his bbm contacts. I was so desperated. I was hurt. She profoundly hurt me. 

           She didn't know how much i love him. She didn't know how many struggles that i've been through just to reach him. Just to keep in touch with him, just to talk with him, ...................... just to see him.

The next year.

              I'm living my new life, trying to forget him and anything about him. But i never forget him, definitely. Not because i don't want to, but i can't. I found him again on twitter, "nice to see you again,dear" i whispered to myself. Nice to know that he's happy now, with his new life, and what? he's single. No, no more her. But it's just impossible to wonder if i could be closer with him as yesterday.

                I feel like i just want to say "Hi" to him but i can't. whereas, in past i was the only one who had his favorite "hello" but now, sadly he doesn't even know me. He doesn't even remember who-i-am. 

But it's fine, at least i still remember him. The one whom i-never-forget.

                   Time flies. and it's hard to realize that he is just somebody that i used to know. 

Now i'm in my first year of college. Starting my new day and life but still with the old hopes. Meet him.

                                              to be continued...