Bintang

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Dear Hi, it's still the same story, the same topic, the same thoughts of my journey. Aku bahkan tak tahu bagaimana cara mengungkapkannya, aku juga tak mengerti bagaimana memulainya. But it's still the same. Kamu mungkin lupa bagaimana senangnya aku, disapamu. Kamu juga mungkin tak ingat betapa dekatnya kita, dulu. Kamu bahkan mungkin lupa betapa aku yang kau sapa di setiap pagi dan malammu. Dan kamu juga pasti lupa bagaimana kamu telah membuatku mengagumimu sampai segininya, sementara kamu menjauh sampai segitunya.

Aku? Kamu kira aku akan lupa siapa namamu, bagaimana cara ku mengenalmu, bagaimana awal kau mengenalku, bagaimana pernah ada kata "kita", hinggga bagaimana aku tak bisa pergi dari ingatan tentangmu? Bagaimana aku masih menyimpan rapi semua tentangmu?
Bagaimana aku masih memimpikanmu dan berharap suatu hari nanti kau milikku? Bahkan sudah lebih dari 4 tahun ternyata semuanya masih begini saja, tentangmu.

Ruangku kini mulai sesak dipenuhi ribuan anganku, tentangmu. Duniaku kini sudah penuh, diisi jutaan mimpi tentangmu. Kini aku bahkan ingin berhenti bermimpi tentangmu, namun berangan bermimpi bersamamu. Aku bahkan sudah lelah berlari menggapaimu, mungkin bukan aku tak mampu, hanya saja kamu terlalu jauh dan tinggi. Atau aku yang sinarnya ditutupi ribuan bintang yang mengejarmu, berharap berada disampingmu? Entah.

Dear Hi again

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Dear Hi, how's life there? hopefully fine, because i always say it on my prayers.
Dear Hi, do you ever want to know how's mine? maybe never. But i'm fine, trying to.
Dear Hi, to be true, i'm still thinking about you right now. Fool me. I shouldn't be like this.
I should move on. I should had moved on. but the fact? was the opposite of it.
I can't take my mind out of you. You're still here. Don't know till when.

Hi, have you ever wondered there's someone out there who always care about you and everything about you?
Someone who always try to reach you? Someone who always dream about you everynight?
Someone who always hope to meet you again anywhere she is?
Someone who has a little wish in her deepest heart to be close to you again?
Someone who... who never stop praying for your happiness? even without herself?

How strong that one is, i bet.
How could? How could a little girl do that big things and keep it to herself?
Even sometimes all she does is just crying. Tired of living with her dreams. Her imaginations, indeed.
She is missing someone right now yet she can't do anything because in her absence he found his happiness.
You have no idea how hard it is to force herself not to think about you, sometimes.

Dear Hi, she wishes you always fine wherever and with whoever you are

a Short Lesson

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You should already know about these short lesson in Psychology :

1. When a person laughs too much, even on stupid things, that person is profoundly sad inside.

2. When a person sleeps a lot, that person is lonely.

3. When a person talks less and if he/she talks fast, that person is keeping a secret.

4.  When a person can not cry, that person is weak.

5. When a person eats in abnormal way, that person is in tension.

6. When a person cries on little things, that person is soft-hearted.

7.  When someone asks about you although that someone is busy, he/she really loves you.

8. When someone appears in your dream, that person mises you.

9. When someone cries and the first drop of tears comes from the right eye, it's happiness.

10. When someone cries and the first drop of tears comes from the left eyes, it's pain.

11. When you think about someone a lot,  it means they were thinking about you first.

12.  Someone who don't talk to you, are the ones who really want to.